My Awkward Life

Today was an emotional day. It started out with me not really sleeping last night, which may explain some of the emotions. However, I don’t think it’s all that. I pulled up to work like I always do and started to tear up. I wasn’t thinking about anything, I think everything just started coming out.

Confession: Sheila and I have been watching The Resident on Netflix. There have been quite a few times when I almost started crying, but I didn’t because I wanted to seem emotional.

My original expiration date was supposed to be November 2nd, but W pushed it out to November 9th because of Hurricane Milton. I had a meeting on October 28th to discuss the position and my future and he and A agreed to push my current contract out to November 9th. I had another meeting this past Monday (November 4th) and they pushed it out to November 16th. He told me that after that, they want to move to every other week deliveries. It’s just been very stressful not knowing what the hell is happening, you know?

Anyway, so this morning, I pulled up and started tearing up. C. M came out and asked if we have an issue

All of these events led to me being in Palm Coast delivering to a hospital around 1:00ish. I finished my delivery, walked to my car, and as I was closing my door, I saw a bumper sticker on the car next to mine. I’m attaching a photo of the sticker:

I read the sticker and thought, “Oh wow, is this a sign?” I get in my car and the next thing I know, the car with the bumper sticker rolled her window down. The dialogue went something like this (I can’t remember what exactly was said, but I remember the first three exchanges):

Stranger: “I saw you reading my bumper sticker.”
Me: “Yes, it’s a very nice sticker.”
Stranger: “I truly believe you were meant to see that today.”
Me: *choking up* “Yes, I do too.”
Stranger: “I saw your body language change. You’re going to be okay and you’ll get through this.”
Me: *full-blown sobbing* “Thank you”
Stranger: “Can I give you a hug?”
Me: “Yes.”

So, we ended up getting out and hugging and she told me that her brother committed suicide and so she just spreads love basically where she can. It was just an incredible, impactful moment that I will never forget. Then, she asked me if I believed in God. I told her “No, but I can appreciate people who do.” She told me a little bit about what was going on in her life and her family and how she had prayed and something wonderful happened. I don’t want to spread all of her business on here, but she ended up asking if she could give me the rosary that she would pray with and that she believes it’ll protect me. She also gave me this little smelly good thing for my car, I’m attaching a photo:

It was just such an amazing experience and when I told Sheila, she mentioned that it’s definitely my dad because of the rosary. The Stranger gave me her number and told me to text her to get the pictures later. She was going to an appointment.

All of these events aligned for us to meet at that moment. Sheila asked me to eat breakfast together. My grandmother was supposed to ride with me today, and if she had, I would’ve gotten going a lot earlier. I ended up staying to eat breakfast, then I went and had two breakdowns at work, and then I spent X amount of time at each office. All of those things for The Stranger and I to meet at 1:15ish this afternoon. I just can’t express enough how powerful that moment was today. I’m truly in awe of how the Universe works. Today has just been emotionally draining in the best way. This experience has also brought my mom and me closer, which makes me so happy. Sheila keeps telling me this has just been the Universe shaking things up and showing me another route for life. I believe that, too. I am so thankful for all of the love in my life. I think I’ve cried more today than I have in a while and I feel cleansed.