My Awkward Life

My birthday is in 4 days and like every year, I fucking hate it. I feel like I’m constantly disappointed and I’m not sure why I still have any hope for it. I can remember maybe a handful of years where I was actually happy in my adult life for my birthday. I’m just over it. I’m not really happy anymore overall. I think depression really is taking me over and I don’t know how to crawl out of it this time.